Anyone who has lived past the age of birth has probably realized that life is not a bowl full of cherries. There are struggles and pain and death and it’s just all part of this thing called life.
Whether it’s a baby crying from a poopy diaper that he can’t change himself, a broken heart from a relationship gone sour, the death of someone we love, or the loss of a job. All these things provide opportunity to build our character and our faith in a God that knows what’s best for us, even when it doesn’t make any sense at all.
Chris and I are in the midst of a financial struggle caused by starting our own business. And if there is anything that hits hard, it’s when the ability to feed and shelter your family becomes questionable. I’ve kept pretty quiet about it, but usually my long blog absences have been caused by my lack of ability to cope with life.
But we know that being self-employed is what we are supposed to do right now.
And it’s been a giant roller coaster ride that has brought strength to my marriage and family in ways that I never would have been able to see through any other circumstances.
But I’ve also had to look some of my fears in the face….the possibility of losing our home, qualifying for state assistance, wondering what we are going to eat this week or just how far I can drive with the red “empty” light on my gas tank before my car shudders to a halt.
And even though we know we are on the right path, there are always opportunities that present themselves to make us doubt that we are doing the right thing.
Because sometimes the right thing (for us) makes absolutely no sense to other people. And numerous times we've been tempted to give up, or have been confused about what we should do.
So today, we were ministered to by an unusual source. Chris woke up with a song running through his head that we tracked down and listened to on Youtube.
Strength comes from many sources.
***I just reread this and wanted my real life people to know that this is not "backing down" against people...it's "standing up" against my circumstances. My family and friends in real life have been encouraging, supportive, prayerful, and generous.