So here I am....3 AM can't sleep.
I'm sitting in the dark with the glow of the laptop bouncing off my scraggly bed hair, wrapped in a blanket, listening to the rain drip out of my full gutters.
Every once in a while I'll hear a kid get up and use the bathroom and I close my laptop and sit very still, hoping they don't wander around the house trying to figure out where I am.
Because that would totally ruin my aloneness and then I'd have to switch back into mommy mode.
There's time enough for that in the morning.
I was thinking maybe I couldn't sleep and there was something I was supposed to pray about but I got nothin.
So I'm wating to get sleepy enough to go back to bed.