I'll just blurt it out. We don't stay up for New Year's Eve. Mostly because the thought of keeping my 5 year old up that late and the resulting crabbiness just isn't worth it to me. So we did our normal routine (little kids at 8)and went to bed at 11:30. But as the neighborhood fireworks started lighting up the night sky and I laid there with eyes wide open...unable to sleep...as Chris snored beside me I thought I would pray-in the New Year.
Sometimes I hold back when I pray because I've lived long enough to know that when I pray for something God answers. Why does that scare me? Because a lot of times He uses trials and challenges to build in me what I'm asking for. I could ask for just a year of total rest. I'm not sure He'd actually give that to me though and would I really want to just stagnate in my personal growth for a year?
So I prayed with abandon, knowing that whatever tools He uses to work these things out in me...he knows what's best.
Lord, let this be a year of growth for my family. Help knit our hearts together in deeper ways. Teach me how to love my husband in the way he needs to be loved not how I think he needs to be loved. Help me to navigate the challenges that come with my children growing towards adulthood. Light a new passion in my heart for teaching my kids academics as well as character. Renew my strength because weakness is a comforting lie sometimes. Cover our finances with grace and continue to lead us out of debt. Help me to listen to your leading and follow. Stretch me as I minister to others. Increase my understanding of who you are and what you think of me. Cover my failures with grace as I see them growing in my children. Thank you for the house over my head, the food in my fridge and the people in my life that you've handpicked for me. Thank you for the places you've led me out of when I didn't see that there was ever going to be a way out. Thank you for healing the wounds that I wasn't sure would ever close up and for being a big warm lap that I can crawl up into when I need comfort.
Happy New Year.