With a title like that and my track record for pictures of poopy pants and recipes for booger sandwiches I’m sure you’re reading on, hoping for a funny story. But sometimes the humor has to take a little sidestep when God’s doing some work in me.
A consistent theme in my life over the last few years (and maybe longer but sometimes I can be real dense) has been the phrase “trust and die”. I don’t remember exactly when He planted that into my heart but it’s been a constant source of teaching; a reminder that my life is not my own and that I need to set my own plans aside, knowing that the God that loves me has my best interests at heart.
And if ever you need a surefire lesson in who is REALLY in control, then that is definitely the quickest route.
Over the past year, and especially the past month, I’ve been given multiple opportunities to strip away what I’ve REALLY been hanging on to; my house, my husbands job, a consistent paycheck, the American Dream. These aren’t bad things in themselves, but for some reason that I don’t understand and honestly, am not enjoying very much, He’s wanting me in a place of desperation where I can honestly say, “I don’t care about any of that stuff…I just want You and whatever you have planned for me.”
Not a journey without birth pains…let me tell you that much.
So I find myself dangling over the edge of a cliff of uncertainty. Below me is pitch blackness. I don’t know if it’s just a few feet down and there are a pile of pillows waiting to catch me, or if the pit is hundreds of feet deep with sticker bushes at the bottom. But there is a big strong arm reaching down and holding on to me. An arm that is warm and comforting and his grip is tight and never tiring. I’m not quite sure if the arm is going to pull me up and out of the cliff or if it’s going to direct my fall to the best place for me to land. But I know He’s got me and that He’s got my rescue all figured out. So all I have to do is relax and listen for His direction when the time comes and then act without question or fear.
And I can honestly say that it is a difficult place to get to, but a peaceful place to rest.